haahah! hello mommy, check out this pic from your freshman year in college!!

And for those who arent my mom, to clarify: this is a pic from the 70s of my mom's 1st year in college in Taiwan.

I need ot find my thing, you knoe the digital camera cable thing. coer to mama!! and if you happen to be a pizza or mushroom you can also come ot mama! Mama is here!! God, life is almsot over. Friday is the day of doom and wonder! How life should be!I got a fujitsu that I cant spell and Im goign to bite off osmeons; head. I went to shoreline today and really wanted to grab one of those cutel itlte spotted fat quirrels that are so incredibly little brained, but veyr cute and wonderul.

I like my easyjournal better.  itrust it. I hate this thing Its terrible It busts my butt and my heart is goign to burst into sa million peices for so many reasons.and i dnt know why or what it makes me feel when i hear things like I live for you or I wont be ablew to continue. I don;t know wha I feel my heart coming out of its socket, busitng my throat.

I fele veyr empty.

I want ot feel something, but I don;t  icant.

I feel void of tohught void of an image.

I fele that i souhldn't be wtiting in xanga anymore becuase it is the place of death, and i sohudl switch to you knoe.becuase it is beaitufl. and easy journal is ownderful, and im leavin in 2 weeks, 2 weeks bakcin safety and comfort, Two weks in solidity. Two weeks to leaving something unknown, to lwaving sething confused, to feeling like privieldge of being and wondering if it is merly transient or forever.

                    PRIVLEDGE OF BEING

uh, do zi reaslly have to write in this? Its more a chore than anything else. well if you really must know, i watched the hours today, loved it, but didin;t fiinish it. And also I;m more sane (more me?) on my easyjournal so check it out!

feltbug

this place makes me angry. Well actually no, its jsut a different feel, I defintely feel like Iml writing to others, not myself. well hehe hoho!

I'm santa! i have a potbelly and white hair!

yes! yay!

I;m also a dolphin riding through the sea.

Im; also virginia woolf.

Thats terrible, I hope i never will be.

I;m also going to bite your head off

Im; also ogign to sleep in 5 min

5 MIN!!!

so uh, hi. Im' not insane; Im your MAMA! but really

how do i get out of italics? this aint cool.well goodbye folks; I love all of you!!!

P.s.-Come eat with me!

P.P.s- Im really tired.

P.P.P.s-hmmmmmmmm

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I am cool. YOu are too, so kick me offline.

There aint no mountain high enough,aint no rver low enough, to keep me from lovin you babe. (mountain signs, river signs)

Closing time, time for (what, soemthing to go on?)

uh,

young hozers( what the hell is that?)

ok I really am goign to stop and give you a piece of mind you poor things. Life is good! Just don;t spoil it.

Ok thats it, it really is

goodbye.

in the words of amy klivans,

I love me. Yes.